I have secretly wanted a pixie cut for years. But a few fears have always held me back.
Like the fear that I would look like I did in third grade when my mom asked a friend to give me the same haircut she'd given her 4-year-old daughter--after said daughter had given herself a haircut....Being the flat-chested, tom-boyish, baggy-clothes-wearing 10-year-old that I was, I was not infrequently mistaken for a boy during the time it took to grow my hair out again. And, despite my flat-chest, baggy clothes and tom-boyish nature....I did not want to look like a boy. And it hurt.
I've gotten over the pain for the most part. But the fear of looking like a boy has remained...
Fear #2: What if people didn't like it? How could I face the world?
Fear #3: I don't know how to style my hair.
Over the last year, my secret desire grew stronger and stronger, partly due to the fact that I shared it with some of my sisters and sisters-in-law, who were very encouraging (with one exception--ahem--Melody). One in particular was so persuasive and optimistic that she decided she wanted one herself and went and got one!
It was like watching someone take the first plunge into the pool, resurface with a big smile and say, "It feels great!"
Then the scardie-cats like me want to jump in too.
So at the end of April, I took the plunge.

It felt good.

Really good.

And what of my fears?
Resolution #1: Wear pink. If that's not enough, you can go get your ears pierced with your 12-year-old sister. She'll even hold your hand.
Resolution #2: I finally decided that I didn't really care whether or not other people liked my haircut. As long as I was happy with it, I could face the world. If my husband liked it, even better! If some people--like those sweet, well-meaning 12-year-old sisters--didn't care for it, I'd survive.
Resolution #3: Still figuring it out.
Most of the response has been very positive. Several people have told me it makes me look like I'm 12. (But at least not like a 12-year-old boy!) There have been a few people who have expressed their disapproval, and even more, I think, who don't know quite what they think.
My favorite response so far, though, was when someone said I look like a Russian spy.

That's me. Stay-at-home mom by day. Russian spy by night.